Right now I am very resistant to writing. I have avoided it like the plague. Each time I open Internet Explorer my blog comes up on one of the tabs, I entertain the thought of writing for a millisecond, and then find an absolutely fantastic reason not to.
I ask myself... why?
More than likely because I know I am honest with myself on here. I am probably more honest than I ever am otherwise. That can be scary. Honesty can reveal truth. Not all truth is pleasant. I have to remember it’s best to know the truth and I need to live by the words I say to others, “the truth is the truth… even if it’s not pretty… I still want to hear it”. This needs to apply to myself as well.
My life has been through so many changes since the end of March. I look back on the whirlwind that I went through and am so thankful that I am still here standing. The damage could have been worse. My close friends and family can attest to that. I wouldn’t say by any means did I do a fantastic job with it all, but I am here and I am ok. That is a great thing.
I have “documented” parts of where I have been the last 6 months, but have chosen not to acknowledge a lot of other ones on here. The thought of someone that I know coming across this site and seeing my deepest and innermost thoughts stops me at times. I am reminding myself today…
Life isn't always pretty… but sometimes it’s beautiful. Things aren’t always easy… but at times they are completely effortless. Life isn’t always fair… but at times you can receive gifts that seem completely unfair in the greatness they bestow upon you. Rain or shine…. in the end what you read here is my life… and it is me.
If you are reading this site and are not one of people that I have directly given the link to… please be understanding when you read my words and if you decide to comment…. please remember that you don’t have to understand or agree… but please respect my right to write what I do.
If you are reading this and are one of the few people that I have invited to share this with me… thank you for reading. I know if you have something to say… the right intentions will be behind it… and that is one of the reasons I trust you.
The next few posts are going to be interesting… taking a deep breath in…
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