More Commas, Less Dots

I spent the evening transferring my blog to another user account since I no longer use the one it was under.  In the process I needed to pull up posts to remove erroneous formatting and was faced with the words I once wrote.  I was uncomfortable and resisted reading. 

I suppose one could speculate on the possible reasons for this discomfort.  Although I lived what I wrote, the visceral feelings I had at the time of my writing have faded.  As I read some, the memories made me grateful for the life I have now.  In reading I am reminded that I am different.  I am not who I was three years ago. I have changed. 

I have even decided I don't mind using commas in my writing, instead of dots everywhere... :o)

Need I Say More?

Stressed. Stressed. Stressed.

Hey you.

I Am Still Here

...and am glad this blog is too. I just re-read some of my older posts and am glad my life is in a different place. I wonder if anyone ever comes here anymore? I suppose not since the words and thoughts dried up like the sun drenched desert. I have thought about changing my blog title since I have come to realize I am not as radiantly optimistic as I would like to think... but decided to leave it be. We can all hope for the best... right?

Yepp - It's been a long time since the blog got some action....

I don't have anything bothering me terribly - hence the lack of blogging. Sooo.... quickly... to shock my few readers with a post... I thought I would give a quick update.

I am happy. Simply happy.

I have exciting plans for this month... three weekends of mini trips that I am estastic about. Cassadaga, Atlanta for Christmas, and then Port St. Joe for New Years. The icing on the cake is that I will be sharing these experiences with John... and I wouldn't want it any other way.

The knee.... well... it is still attached. :o) Actually - even though I am still not all fixed up... I am managing quite nicely. Independence has started to find it's way back into my life... and it's a great thing.

Work is ok - and that is all I can ask for right now. The tension has subsided quite a bit... which makes the air easier to sit in.

I want to end with this...

I am grateful. So so very grateful for so much. I am grateful for life. I am grateful for my family. I am grateful for the person that has become my best friend... and all that he offers to my life. I am grateful for the moments I am given on a daily basis that make me smile. I am grateful to myself.... for learning from the last year and all that came before... I know that what I have come from has changed me... but in the end it was all for the best. I am grateful for this moment. I am grateful for waking up each morning and the possibilities and chances the day offers.

Three Days ~ Three Changes

I am not very sleepy... in part due to my nap this afternoon (:::sigh::: I should have known better).

I am thinking a lot about my last few days. Meeting new people and being social. Renewed hope in an important part of my life. The making of space for my "me time" passion.

I have a blog in process about change - along with a couple of others of various topics. I am realizing that without change life wouldn't continue forward... it would stay stuck and stagnant. Things are constantly in a state of change, but it is more when it gets uncomfortable that it becomes difficult to accept (at least for me). Everything that happens - happens for a reason. Sometimes we need to release what isn't working and recognize that change is needed to find what we are really looking for. This can apply to my experiences the last few days. It is interesting that these last three days... have three distinct themes of change.

There has been a recent reduction in staff in my friend category. The ONLY way this will change is if I want to change it and am willing to put myself out there. I needed to let go and take a chance Friday night. Chatty and smiley would be my self description (after about 15 min of being introverted and quiet I decided that it wasn't going to deliver the results I was looking for). In the end... I wound up having a excellent time and met some new people! :o)

Saturday... well... it was Saturday. :o) Truth was spoken and openness was present... in the downs and ups something clicked... it has been tagged "a revelation". I am hopeful. Life doesn't promise anything... it doesn't promise what tomorrow will hold or if there will even be a tomorrow. What I do know is that I hold "Saturday" and the important things about it very close... I am grateful for the answer the universe has delivered... at least for now. :o)

Tonight I decided that there was something lacking in my life that I could easily (well... somewhat easily) change. One of my passions and how I like to spend some "me time" is scrapbooking. My stuff has been in boxes and untouched for months. My weeks are changing somewhat and some alone time for me is being re-established... which really is a good thing for multiple reasons. Something clicked for me and I decided that I was going to find a way to make space in here... so I could bring my stuff out and get lost in something that makes me happy if I felt the urge to do so. I'm excited that the process is underway.... :o)

Maybe tomorrow I will have a "Day 4" to add to this list... :o)

Nietzsche Quotes

Tonight I was browsing some quotes while thinking about the day. I found two by Friedrich Nietzsche that I really like and seem fitting for the day.

"The individual has always had to struggle to keep from being overwhelmed by the tribe. If you try it, you will be lonely often, and sometimes frightened. But no price is too high to pay for the privilege of owning yourself."

"What is done out of love always takes place beyond good and evil."